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To Have a Racing Mind

is to have a problem and a superpower

Aysia C.
4 min readJan 18, 2025
Photo by Ricardo Santanna on Unsplash

“She’s so quiet.”

My entire life has been dominated by this phrase and variations of it.

And it’s true. I am quiet.

And unfortunately, other assumptions about my personality have been tied to this observation.

From interactions I’ve had, I’d imagine that people think I’m other things typically associated with quietness. I’d imagine they think I’m compliant, or a pushover or unaware, as if external quietness means that I am void. And when I prove them wrong, it’s as if I’ve become an offender, a wolf in sheep’s clothing. People don’t like to be proven wrong.

I love what my mother would say in response to those who’d make this observation of me. She’d say, she’s always listening. She listens with her eyes.

It is truly a superpower how I manage to fool people into thinking I am void.

I am, indeed, not void and never have been. I was a daydreamer, and I had a colorful imagination. My mind was always at work: registering, calculating, analyzing. It didn’t always run, but it walked.

To simply vocalize the innerworkings of an abnormally active mind is to be seen as a problem. People who do this are seen as too much, too bold, obscene, obnoxious…

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Aysia C.
Aysia C.

Written by Aysia C.

Jesus-lover | People-lover | Romans 10:9-10 | Philippians 4:4-6 <3 | . email: aysia.writes@gmail.com

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